Love, Sex and Relationships!!

I'm in my mid twenties and living in an age of "know it all". Yes, these days all of us think we know it all. Yet, we always seem so confused about Love, Sex and Relationships!!

We are no more in the era of Does he/Does he not?? Remember playing with flower petals rather breaking petals. :) Now to quote something I read somewhere - "These days people say I love you like Hello!" we are living in a fast track world. Love on the first day, probably then sex, then relationship (if required) and then the break-off, little bit of crying, a lot of boozing, bitching on social networking sites and we are good to go back in the market. You can add and delete things in this list as per your convenience but the pattern remains the same.

On giving 100% :)

Before you give up, give it your 100%. I have practiced this and it usually works too. I'm going to do it tonight. We usually give up on the 99th step of victory, we fail by 1 last step. I'm worried and nervous this time but I'm not giving up easily. :)  

Talked to Madhu ma'am today (she's my boss) and the most amazing woman I came across in my life. Someone with such a beautiful smile that it warms my heart every time I see her, she radiates energy. Love you ma'am. :)

Words from the heart

As I lay in bed the whole day today - falling asleep and suddenly waking up in sweat due to high fever. My illness gave me an opportunity to ponder over a lot of issues. How so many fears have settled deep inside me - the fear of loneliness, the fear of being abandoned by loved ones, the fear of hearing lies and dishonesty, and the fear of losing my parents.

And the realization - dude you can't really help it. Things happen at their own pace, life moves on, people come and go, you have good experiences and bad ones and the good thing you learn to survive all of it - btw by you here I mean all of us. :-) I dislike it when people are dishonest either to me or in general. Yes, indeed I dislike it very much but can I help it? Can I change people and am I actually responsible for others?

A post for my teachers and students :)

Aisa kyu nahi hota main kuch na kahun aur tum samjh jao?? aksar ye kehne ko mann karta hai... :) (Translation - why don't you understand what do I want to say without me expressing it in words? I often think this) i wish people as in friends and loved ones would understand me without much explanations... but then I think how would I feel if my friends and loved ones stopped expressing themselves, will I be able to understand everything?

This one is to Art and Friendships :-)

I haven't worked much in last few days.... Strangely, I don't know what has come over me but I'm enjoying life without any guilt and life is leading me.... :-) An inner voice keeps telling me you are safe and just go out there and enjoy without a worry. Yes, problems continue and life is very messy and uncertain right now but well what the hell. Not that I want to ignore the problems and not solve them or escape them but I want to take it easy. For those who know me, they know I’m a panic-er... but aha not this time... :-)

Saw a couple of movies in the last few days - Gangs of wasseypur - 2 and Shirin Farhad ki toh nikal padi.... strange names na!! Liked both of them... Although, I'd say GOW 1 was way better than GOW 2. Saturday is going to be eventful.... An interview in noon, followed by an evening date with my best friend also my lil' sister Teena (we are planning to meet at Indian Habitat Center) - I'll be seeing her after months.....!!! 

Worry attacks are different than panic attacks!

It amazes me how much do we worry about our future. Have you ever wasted hours and hours pondering and worrying about tomorrow? About what the future holds?? Most of my worry-attacks come at night :) When I entangle myself in the threads of love, studies, career, money, future, job, friendships, marriage and endless such things... 

A lost tale *dreamy eyes*

It Sunday and I have loads of work to finish.. Sitting on the bed, staring at the laptop, trying to work, listening to my favourite show on the radio "Yaad Shehar with Neelesh Misra" - Beautiful narration of stories and classics blended together. I like getting lost in his voice and his way of narration. I live the stories, I feel them around me, I get lost in the lives of characters being talked of.

My first BLOG... yay!!

It has been very long since I created this blog but I never got to time or the will to write anything. I always had excuses... :P That's just the way I'm in life too. I go after things/people/relations which seem difficult to get and I always manage to get them and eventually lose interest! *opps* - was I supposed to blurt this online? It somehow ends up becoming too easy for me - too useless and too boring.. (Will surely talk about this someday) Like Delhi - the city I grew up in.. Now I find it too boring, too familiar. I like getting lost, I like the fear that I may not ever find my way, the panic and then the sweet victory... Dramatic I'm :P