yaadein (memories)

ye yaadein kitni ajeeb hoti hain, mann ke aangan main dabe paaon chali aati hain… aa jaati hain bin bulae, bin pukare aur bin batae. woh bana jaati hain mujhe woh jo main tere saath tha – kuch khush sa kuch pura sa, kabhi jalta toh kabhi bujhta, teri awaaz se jee uth-ta aur teri hasi se khil jaata hua woh purana sa main.. aksar bheed main talashta rehta hun tujhe, aksar apne zinda hone ke sabut ekathe kiya karta hun – kabhi has kar kabhi ro kar aur kabhi baarish main jaame pani main apne aks ko nihar kar. tanha rehna chahta hun ab, teri yaadon ke bina. nahi chahiye ab ye yaadein bhi ki jo tu na mil paya mujhe. le ja har woh lamha jo tere saath jiya tha maine, woh har lamha jo ab tere bin marr raha hun main bas wahi rehne de.

I don't want to be happy!

What most people want out of life is happiness - it may come with different names and titles; forms and shapes but what we need is happiness. You'd hardly hear someone say "I don't want to be happy".... - Well, at least I've never heard someone say that and if you have I'd love to hear about it.

Sadly, we are rarely happy, momentarily happy, yes, but never in a constant state of happiness because as humans we always want more and more. We push ourselves beyond our limits and often complicate things to add some Drama in life. Well, who likes to be normal, isn't it? We are scared to be normal. It is not extra-ordinary to be extra-ordinary, it is extra-ordinary to be normal.

Give me a purpose

Give me a purpose..... a purpose to move ahead. Give me a reason, a reason that flows through my veins. Excite me, for I'm not one of those who lie still..... Built me a nest and let me fly..... Ah, no i don't contradict myself. I shall come back home after all. Allow me to fly for the vastness of the sky enchants me, the stars in the sky twinkle at me and i live and die like the moon each night. I dislike straight roads, the adventures of hilly terrains allure me.

My Utopian Love

Love often leaves you confused, restless, longing and lost... Love - funny(ily) painful emotion. Love always has been a longing for me. Ever since I have understood love, I have longed for it... I sit in my Utopian world and long for my love to join me, to come live with me in my world, to ride my waves of passions and emotions. - I use the word "Utopian" here as I live in a world of my own, which sometimes I feel is quite non-existent or impossible to exist or too difficult/too perfect to exist. 

You know, I have always found it strange and have discussed this with a lot of people that I don't understand the explanation behind the sentence "I'm an emotional person" - Excuse me, actually all of us are. Aren't you? All of us experience endless emotions, the only difference is how we express them. We may choose different expressions to convey the same emotion, but all of us are "emotional"! 

Lost between different worlds

Is it day or night i ask... to no one in particular. I have books, laptop, pen and paper for company and they complete my being for the time being. I need nothing more and nothing less but it would have been nice to have you as company. You with your puzzled expression when i talk of love, romance and fairy tales with my child-like enthusiasm.