I don't want to be happy!

What most people want out of life is happiness - it may come with different names and titles; forms and shapes but what we need is happiness. You'd hardly hear someone say "I don't want to be happy".... - Well, at least I've never heard someone say that and if you have I'd love to hear about it.

Sadly, we are rarely happy, momentarily happy, yes, but never in a constant state of happiness because as humans we always want more and more. We push ourselves beyond our limits and often complicate things to add some Drama in life. Well, who likes to be normal, isn't it? We are scared to be normal. It is not extra-ordinary to be extra-ordinary, it is extra-ordinary to be normal.

Give me a purpose

Give me a purpose..... a purpose to move ahead. Give me a reason, a reason that flows through my veins. Excite me, for I'm not one of those who lie still..... Built me a nest and let me fly..... Ah, no i don't contradict myself. I shall come back home after all. Allow me to fly for the vastness of the sky enchants me, the stars in the sky twinkle at me and i live and die like the moon each night. I dislike straight roads, the adventures of hilly terrains allure me.

My Utopian Love

Love often leaves you confused, restless, longing and lost... Love - funny(ily) painful emotion. Love always has been a longing for me. Ever since I have understood love, I have longed for it... I sit in my Utopian world and long for my love to join me, to come live with me in my world, to ride my waves of passions and emotions. - I use the word "Utopian" here as I live in a world of my own, which sometimes I feel is quite non-existent or impossible to exist or too difficult/too perfect to exist. 

You know, I have always found it strange and have discussed this with a lot of people that I don't understand the explanation behind the sentence "I'm an emotional person" - Excuse me, actually all of us are. Aren't you? All of us experience endless emotions, the only difference is how we express them. We may choose different expressions to convey the same emotion, but all of us are "emotional"! 

Lost between different worlds

Is it day or night i ask... to no one in particular. I have books, laptop, pen and paper for company and they complete my being for the time being. I need nothing more and nothing less but it would have been nice to have you as company. You with your puzzled expression when i talk of love, romance and fairy tales with my child-like enthusiasm. 

Love, Sex and Relationships!!

I'm in my mid twenties and living in an age of "know it all". Yes, these days all of us think we know it all. Yet, we always seem so confused about Love, Sex and Relationships!!

We are no more in the era of Does he/Does he not?? Remember playing with flower petals rather breaking petals. :) Now to quote something I read somewhere - "These days people say I love you like Hello!" we are living in a fast track world. Love on the first day, probably then sex, then relationship (if required) and then the break-off, little bit of crying, a lot of boozing, bitching on social networking sites and we are good to go back in the market. You can add and delete things in this list as per your convenience but the pattern remains the same.

On giving 100% :)

Before you give up, give it your 100%. I have practiced this and it usually works too. I'm going to do it tonight. We usually give up on the 99th step of victory, we fail by 1 last step. I'm worried and nervous this time but I'm not giving up easily. :)  

Talked to Madhu ma'am today (she's my boss) and the most amazing woman I came across in my life. Someone with such a beautiful smile that it warms my heart every time I see her, she radiates energy. Love you ma'am. :)

Words from the heart

As I lay in bed the whole day today - falling asleep and suddenly waking up in sweat due to high fever. My illness gave me an opportunity to ponder over a lot of issues. How so many fears have settled deep inside me - the fear of loneliness, the fear of being abandoned by loved ones, the fear of hearing lies and dishonesty, and the fear of losing my parents.

And the realization - dude you can't really help it. Things happen at their own pace, life moves on, people come and go, you have good experiences and bad ones and the good thing you learn to survive all of it - btw by you here I mean all of us. :-) I dislike it when people are dishonest either to me or in general. Yes, indeed I dislike it very much but can I help it? Can I change people and am I actually responsible for others?